It’s been a month since Rob hid the scale. Yes, I am 30 days “clean”.
It’s been a few days since it’s been back in the bathroom. Yes, I’m afraid I may relapse.
I understand that it’s not the number on the scale, it’s how you look, feel, how your clothes fit, etc. But what if I’m doing the math wrong? What if I only think I’m doing everything right and I actually GAINED weight? There are so many variables – like building muscle, and (ok, that’s really all I’ve got). But do I even want to know my weight? My size 10 Big Star jeans fit me again. Isn’t that enough?
You see, I made a decision 30 days ago that, instead of relying on the scale, I will become more “intuitive” with my health habits. I will, of course, have some basic facts and figures in mind, but rely mostly on “what feels right” for my body, mind, and soul (pause here for eye-rolling). I must have been on some totally stellar yoga high that day and was feeling all “evolved” and “non-obsessive”; “OooOooh, look at meeee! Look how emotionally healthy I am! Check out my great body image!” I think I might have even said: “Would it be so terrible if I stayed this size? I look so greeeeaaaat!”
Now that the haze has lifted, and the bikinis are out in the stores, (and my wedding dress is waving at me coyly from the closet), I see clearly that, yeah no. I’m still the same scale-obsessed person I was before my moment of enlightenment. It’s funny how fleeting Nirvana can be.
Anyway, this has been my “modus operandi” for the past month: I used an online calculator to figure out my BMR (calories needed daily to maintain my current weight). My magic number is approximately 2200 calories per day. I figured that if I shave off 200-300 calories per day, and add the three hikes per week that we’ve been doing (which burn around 600 calories each) it should be pretty close to a 3500 calorie per week deficit which equals 1 pound of weight loss per week….right? Theoretically?
So do I really NEED to get on that scale? Feel free to “weigh in” (ha….ha ha ha….ha).
About Me
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- Hi, and welcome! The purpose of this blog is purely self-indulgent, I admit (aren’t most blogs?). It started out as a place where I could log my weight loss and running progress before my wedding and my first half marathon in 2010. It quickly morphed into a convenient venue for blabbing about anything I felt like; My weight loss goals, yoga, boots, my horse, food, decent fitting jeans, hats, buddhism, weekend fun, you name it! So if you're looking for a blog with a complicated patchwork of deep thoughts, musings or philosophies, a blog providing insight into an amazingly interesting, brilliant person's mind...this ain't it! But feel free to laugh with (at) me as I share my thoughts, my occasional successes, and my epic failures!
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3 comments:
Great blog post! I just got on the scale for the first time in YEARS and wow, I've gained some pounds! I don't know how much, if any, I've lost in the last 2 1/3 months, but I WILL be weighing myself again!
I envy people who say "I just got on the scale for the first time in YEARS.." What? Were you living in a cave???? Lol! Good for you...maybe stay off the scale! : ) (You've always looked great anyway)
The scale sucks. I've run up and f'ing down Coyote Creek trail for years and it won't budge (much). I think it may really be the beer, but COME ON! I don't count calories yet...I'm just training for an ironman triathlon instead! --Tish
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