Week 9 & My Non-Epiphany

Well, here we are at the end of week 9.

I ran, I hiked, I danced, I weighed in and found (no surprise) that I lost a few pounds from the previous month, but I have to confess, I’ve become a little bored with blogging. I’m not sure if “bored” is the right word to use. I just feel like I’ve said all I have to say…for now. If I think of something else, I’ll be sure to jot it down.

You see, I feel a perceptible shift in “things”. Before, I felt like I was on some great journey. I packed my bags, bought my ticket, announced my itinerary to friends and family, and climbed aboard the train to Sveltville. I had someplace to go, a goal to achieve, pitfalls to avoid, milestones to celebrate, quip-y anecdotes to share. But somehow between the beginning and now, I’ve become the journey, rather than being on one. I am the baggage (ha ha), the ticket, the itinerary, the train, the starting point, and the destination, all at the same time. I didn’t “lose myself in the journey”, nor have I “found myself on the journey". I didn't have a sudden, great realization or an amazing epiphany. In fact, by epiphany standards, it would have been quite disappointing. The bottom line is that I quietly, and with very little fanfare, realized that I was cognizant of these things. I am now, and always have been, both the beginning and end of the journey. Get it? I barely do.

As with anything in life, once you start down a path of one sort or another, it usually doesn't take long, if all goes well, to realize that you have never "not been" the path itself. Same thing here. We are not individual leaves floating on a river, we are all river. I guess it was only a matter of time before I became the train I boarded. That's how I roll (get it?).

So what does it all mean? Nothing, really. It means I am in a good flow. I am happy, excited about the wedding, feel good about myself, feel fit and healthy, and I must add that I am quite impressed with my body's willingness and ability to meet the physical demands I place on it. I doubt I was this fit in my 20's!

It certainly doesn’t make for very exciting or entertaining writing though. But I thought I'd share anyway...because that's what I do!